I’m reaching the effort is there I’d already have you if life was fair But one night of low sleepAnd I’m knocked back deep Relentless I know I deserve you But I still haven’t picked up all the clues I’ve spent the money, the time, the habitsYou can just beat up my soul and stab …
I wish I could be angry. But I can’t be. Because a full spectrum of emotions would overwhelm me. One small thing can tip my immune system to relapse. I’m not mad. No. I’m trapped. Like a prisoner in lonely confinement who looks forward to just one call. The moments of escape are sweet. But …
I’ve been at war for far too longAnd I’m readyThis is my PTSD song5 years steady When is my turn to finally be freeLet me be free from this prison that you can all find me I got all these feelings And I don’t know how to feel themI’m ready to go down a new …
They say no pain no gainBut I’ve Sitting here daily feeling like my minds going insaneIt’s weird how the news doesn’t let it get any fameIts scary how many people out there with a Lyme brain You think of big things like maybe I’ll be an actor One audition leaves you like you’ve been run …
I Was Told…Effort and mindset that’s all I needDon’t be upset your thoughts can misleadBut you get ill and your only bet is treatmentYou realize the book the secret is just lazy and convenient Suicidal thoughts 27 days out of 30All alone because others get tired of being worriedYou know its the illness but these …
I’ve been in hell for years and years and years. Survival mode, feeling sick every damn day, and the biggest thing I’m doing is trying to prevent suicide. Then all a sudden, I get some relief. I start to feel normal. I feel good for once. When you haven’t felt good in 6+ years, and …
Feel emptyBut it isn’t a bad emptyFeel neutralBut it isn’t a bad neutral It’s a feeling of the aftermath of chaosYou don’t feel bad. You feel neutralized.You don’t feel intensity or anything thrillingBut your peace isn’t exactly fulfilling I feel clear minded, calm, slightly contentI wonder what this last Lyme relapse meantStriving forwards with a …
Years ago today you decided to leaveLeft us confused on how to grieveWas it on purpose or was it random fateWas it because we responded too late People always talk highly of those that are deadSo this time I will tell the truth insteadYes, you had some anger issues every now and thenBut you always …
We know the flaws and mistakesNo applause when the Lyme outbreaksMakes it harder when you’re going at it nonstopWhen you give an inch and they take 10 miles and flip-flop I got all the pressure and weight on my shouldersEven outside of business everyone thinks their my shareholdersSometimes I secretly fantasize and yearnFor someone to …
The more I share, the more I seeHow many people want the real meHidden before but I’ve hit the pointWhere I don’t care if it disappoints The personal is the most universalWhen I share what might be controversialI’ll push some away but I’ll bring others inThe ones that truly want me to win You are …